good bye zurich

well, no again its bin a long time, but hey, i woz always working, and by the time i came back home id be too tired to write here, well, not anymore, coz this pompey gay boi has quit his shithole job at zurich!! (btw, is shithole 1 or 2 words? hmmmmm?)

yep, i had a week off las week thinking that if i did, id want to cum back to zurich and that id realise that i had a pretty good job, well it had the complete oppersite effect, i got into zurich on monday morning, ready for work, when i got in there, i was ready to cry, i couldnt understand why i felt this way, everyday there, till i realised it woz because we had all this pressure placed on us, and if things wernt done, we were made to feel like it was our fault, wen it reeli wasnt, if ur gona make half the staff redundant, most of the beta staff, (a few of the beta staff stayed) and getting them to work wit twice the work load, then its ur own fault wen u dont get the results u expected!!

anyway got in there and had a feeling that i was skating on thin ice coz i kept having days off here and there jus coz i didnt want to be there, i wen to c my boss at 12 for a meeting and told her i wanted to quit, she cudnt believe it, she didnt want me to quit and sed so, but sed that if i was feeling the way that i did, it woz only a temp job and that i shudnt stay for sumthing like this if it made me feel this way, i felt so good, leaving that afternoon, i woz free, and suddenly i had all these possiblities to consider, writer, commedian, teacher, there are so many things that i wana do, and now i cud do them!!

iv sent bout about 15 applications for jobs now, only bar work and waiting and sales assistants, but ill tell u this, im shittin myself now, coz if i dont find a job soon, im fucked, and trust me to jack in my job when there is a economic crisis, lol, but hopefully ill find sumthin, if i hav to ill turn to prostitution, im not adverse to it, i go to the gym, and ill be paid for sumthin fun, lol, but thats a las resort, because there is no way im gona be on the doll, its full of white trash, and im not gona be 1 of them, iv done it once and felt so dirty afterwards, (my mum made me when i quit uni, dont judge).

so now im sitting here writing to u lot, jus to tell u how good it feels to be a free agent, lol, and also how good it feels to no that im never gona hav to c SL from work again!!! the only thing that kills me is knowing that i cant go clubbin untill i get another job, which is a bitch coz it means that i wont get to c the cute blonde barman who i reeli reeli reeli fancy, lol,
luv ya

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long time no see

well, sori its bin a long time, jus bin reeli reeli busy at the moment, well, i say busy, jus reeli tired, by the time i cum home from work its 5pm, and im jus exhausted, lol, so, wots been happening in the world of the pompy gay boi? well, i went to leeds on the 20th feb for my bday, clubbin, woz well good, i reeli enjoyed it, KF and me wen shopping on the friday and saturday, KF wanted to go to all the expesive shop like westwood and harvey nickols, lol, which i didnt want to go to coz i think its to expesive, lol.
sat we were out all day shoppin for me so i cud by sum more clothes for clubbin that nyte, got sum new shirts and tops, and a new bag, lol, i cudnt resist, oh, and 2 pairs of new shoes, look very nice on me.
so sat nyte clubbin woz reeli good, we only wen to 1 main gay club and spent most of the nyte there, but if i hadnt bin going home the nex mornin, i wud hav pulled, why? coz sum reeli cute blonde guy cudnt keep his hand off my arse all nyte, everytime i turned round, he woz there havin a good feel, no i didnt encorage him, but i didnt dicourage either, lol. didnt get too drunk that nyte, but i got drunk enuf to look at the poles supplied by the club for dancing, to think, yeah, ill be grindin that tonyte, which i did, i think id make a very good pole dance, i enjoyed it and didnt cause myself any damage, lol, wel, there are vids and pics of me doing on my facebook, but not tellin who i am so url neva get to c them, lol.

oh, i got asked out on a date to las thursday for las saturday, woz having a reeli low day thursday, and RM, sum1 iv only met once, kept on and on at me for a date, so in the end i sed yes coz i felt bad sayin no, and also everytime we speak on facebook, he tells me how good looking i am, so i fort, fuck it, i need an ego boost, ill do it, all my friends told me not to, coz i cud do better, but i needed to be told sum nice things, they sed he woz only saying it coz he wanted to get into my boxers, which is probably true, but it wud never happen, no matter how drunk i got, lol, wel, saturday came, and i foned him saying i cudnt make it coz i didnt reeli like him and i had a lil bit of a hangova, coz my new lesbian friend had made me go out on the friday. RM wos fine wit is as he sed that he'd had a disaster wit a bottle of fake tan, that put me off for good after that, ewh, fake tan, its so...........fake! lol. well till nex time

p.s. ill try to make it on here daily, lol, get back into the swing of things.

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21st

wel, the birthday came and went, and it was brilliant!!!
went into work yesterday at 8am, and brought in cakes and sweets for my team members, wot i wasnt counting on was that they had all chipped in and bought me a card and a huge bottle of decent vodka, my fav drink at the mo. so, got into work and spent the first half of the day thinking that it woz ok to be in work on my 21st birthday, then when 2pm came, thats wen it hit me..... i didnt want to be in work, and i got a lil depressed and did very lil work. 4pm came and work finished, so went home and basically relaxed for an hour b4 i had to be out again to go to my friends house for 7 coz we were going to have dinner together, she paid, im nothing if not a gentleman, lol.
no reeli, she sed i wasnt alout to pay as it woz her treat me, she had also bought me a book that woz an proof read book, meanin it had been sent out to others b4 its propa publishin date, SC sed it was an extrodinary find, i cant wait to get a chance to read it.

so, birthday presents, i got £81 in total, a brand new digital camera, some jewllery, and some odds and sods. reeli good birthday this year, and iv got this friday to look forward to, coz me and KF are going to leeds for the weekend!!! woop woop.

today i didnt go into work, i told them that id drunk too much las nyte wit SC and that i had a hang ova, they were fine coz it woz my 21st, and its not like they cud do anything, i mean, it woz my 21st, coming of age.
so 2day i spent the day doing a lil shopping, bought a couple of DVDs, and a couple of books, iv now completed my twilight series, bought the last 3 books for £15 in HMV, love that shop, plus there are a couple of guys who work there that i reeli fancy, so its nice to be served by some eye candy, lol, not that i think bout that sorta thing alot.....jus most of the time. well, till next time.

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all hell breaks loose

wel, u heard it right, all hell broke loose at work today, why i hear u ask? wel, i happened to tell SL, one of the other temps that she cud have my desk on my team, as one of the other team members was leaving, and i woz going to sit at their desk from now on. wot i didnt no at the time when i was saying this las friday, was that the desk i woz going to move myself onto was actually going to be given to a nu member of the team, fine by me, i was happy to stay at my desk, and SL cud use one of the other free desks in the office, and if she didnt like it, tough shit.

SL didnt like it, so then proceeded to complain to one of the other clericals (KL), saying that i refused to leave my desk, and that she had nowhere to sit wiv a pc.
there is 1 other free pc in this office, that never used, but she didnt want to sit there as, another temp sits there, who is a lil messy, and has left sum rubbish on there, she wont sit there coz she refuse's to clean up his mess, understandable, hypercitical as well, considering, she is one messy bitch herself, and i had to clean up the desk that im at now (which used to be hers, till she moved to another), which had contained all her crap on it.
but the best thing about this is, the temp in question, i work wit his mother, SJG, who i get on reeli well wit, SL started bitchin bout how messy he woz, in front of SJG, who then sed that SL shudnt go on bout it in front of her, as she mite start to get annoyed, i mean reeli, if ur gona bitch bout sum1, dont do it near any1 who likes that person, or in this case, gave birth to them.

well, enuf of my bitching, and on to sum news, BG, who is one of my team members, and who i sit nex to, has left this team to go into the fraud team, its only being 3 hours since she left, but i cant help but miss her already as it feels so quiet and empty wivout her nex to me.

woop woop, its my birthday 2morro, gona be 21, god do i feel old, lol. gota go into work 2morro, but im havin lunch it the other clericals in franki and bennies, then after work, one of my best friends SC is talking me out for a meal, and then iv got leeds to look forward to friday!! KF got the tickets today, only cost £55, we are leaving pompey dockyard at 5.30am, early, but we get into leeds for 1pm, which means we get to do sum shopping b4 we go out, and maybe sum early drinking!!!!

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stupidity

quick update on the coach ticket situation, me and KF wen to the station to buy the tickets and guess wot, it woz shut, turns out it is closed on a sunday, who'd hav fort. so now iv had to give KF £60 coz she is working down Gunwarf, so she sed she'd get the tickets on her lunch break. only we wud go to the coach station on a sunday to buy tickets wen its shut.

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luv this pic

OMG, woz jus searching the web jus for sum random funni pics and found this, i luv it, it looks so much beta than the play boy logo, lol. wel, i no its early in the morning, and havnt reeli donw anything 2day, yet, but lata 2day, im off to the coach station wit my best friend KF, me and her are going there to buy our tickets for leeds on friday, cant wait!!! clubbin in leeds, its gona be good.

las nite my mum was asking me all these random questions, i think she woz trying to get ideas as to wot to get me for my bday on tuesday, but the one that stuck me as the oddest woz, 'wot is ur favorit colour to wear?' to which my reply woz 'purple, why?' 'i woz jus wondering' was all she replied back.

this worries me slightly as im very picky about wot i wear, its neva a good idea to buy me clothes ever, unless im there overseeing the buying of sed clothes, coz the las person to buy me clothes, bought a god awful shirt from primark, luv primark for their tshirts, but not their shirts. i jus hope she isnt planning on buying me clothes.

another thing, iv decided that im not gona get into the habit of smoking, i do it wen im drunk, i hav now decided that this is not going to happen, coz its the one thing i jus dont wana get into, so, now wen im out, im gona try to stay away from the smoking area, i mean, i only do it coz its sumthing to do, i dont actually crave cigerettes. so, late new years resolution, dont smoke!!

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so, here i am, sitting in my hallway, ipod on random, no longer wiv the massive hang ova that i had this morning. las nyte was very.....intresting? had a few revelations, SC took me to the slug and lettece for my pre 21st bday clubbin nyte. my old drama teacher was there HF, was reeli nice to see her again, had a catch up, but HF had to leave early coz she had a chest infection, well i think it woz? she kept coachin and splutterin. me and SC were ment to go to hampshire bulevard, but it seems that as SC gets older she cant handle her drink coz she was tired and wen home, but gave me her door keys so that i cud get back in2 the house after hampshire bulevard, i woz stoppin at hers u c.

wel, to one of the first relevations that i had las nyte, i work as a temp at zurich insurance, and i hav to get a coach that they provide so that i can get in2 work each day. so, there is this guy who gets on, who i quite fancy, and i cud swear that i hav caught him lookin at me a few times, but me being me, i havnt done anything coz im not confident enuf coz my gay dar is shit! lol. wel las nyte i saw him clubbin in hampshire bulevard las nyte, which means that yes he is gay, which did make my nyte, and i saw him lookin at me, which im thinkin means that i actually have a chance monday, but im not gona make the 1st move, its jus not my style, lol.

another revelation that i came to las nyte was that i have be uncanny ability to hold my alcohol, seeing as i spent £50 las nyte and was not paraletic, which pleases me, lol. another thing that happened was that sum random lesbian kept tryin to set me up, which was kinda annoying, but hey, if it gets me out there on the scene, its a small price to pay.
altho, i jus dont understand how i can attract lesbians but not gays. i hav 1 gay friend, who's bin dating his boyfriend for 3 years now, and is having an affair, which he kindly told me las week, im all for being open, but thats jus too open for my liking, but anyway to the point, 1 gay friend, lots of lesbian friends! why?!

well, like i say, the hangova has worn off, and now iv jus realised, its another fucking valentines day where im single, great, but thats all gona change....hopefully.

no this is a long post, but its my first, so there, lol.

see u lata xoxo