good bye zurich

well, no again its bin a long time, but hey, i woz always working, and by the time i came back home id be too tired to write here, well, not anymore, coz this pompey gay boi has quit his shithole job at zurich!! (btw, is shithole 1 or 2 words? hmmmmm?)

yep, i had a week off las week thinking that if i did, id want to cum back to zurich and that id realise that i had a pretty good job, well it had the complete oppersite effect, i got into zurich on monday morning, ready for work, when i got in there, i was ready to cry, i couldnt understand why i felt this way, everyday there, till i realised it woz because we had all this pressure placed on us, and if things wernt done, we were made to feel like it was our fault, wen it reeli wasnt, if ur gona make half the staff redundant, most of the beta staff, (a few of the beta staff stayed) and getting them to work wit twice the work load, then its ur own fault wen u dont get the results u expected!!

anyway got in there and had a feeling that i was skating on thin ice coz i kept having days off here and there jus coz i didnt want to be there, i wen to c my boss at 12 for a meeting and told her i wanted to quit, she cudnt believe it, she didnt want me to quit and sed so, but sed that if i was feeling the way that i did, it woz only a temp job and that i shudnt stay for sumthing like this if it made me feel this way, i felt so good, leaving that afternoon, i woz free, and suddenly i had all these possiblities to consider, writer, commedian, teacher, there are so many things that i wana do, and now i cud do them!!

iv sent bout about 15 applications for jobs now, only bar work and waiting and sales assistants, but ill tell u this, im shittin myself now, coz if i dont find a job soon, im fucked, and trust me to jack in my job when there is a economic crisis, lol, but hopefully ill find sumthin, if i hav to ill turn to prostitution, im not adverse to it, i go to the gym, and ill be paid for sumthin fun, lol, but thats a las resort, because there is no way im gona be on the doll, its full of white trash, and im not gona be 1 of them, iv done it once and felt so dirty afterwards, (my mum made me when i quit uni, dont judge).

so now im sitting here writing to u lot, jus to tell u how good it feels to be a free agent, lol, and also how good it feels to no that im never gona hav to c SL from work again!!! the only thing that kills me is knowing that i cant go clubbin untill i get another job, which is a bitch coz it means that i wont get to c the cute blonde barman who i reeli reeli reeli fancy, lol,
luv ya

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xoxo