Tuesday, 28 April 2009

still looking

hello out there, well my internet has bin down now for about 2 weeks which has bin shit, only coz the bill wasnt paid tho, but now it is so all is good, well, where to start?

first things, that new job i was telling you about the last time i blogged, well, i lost it, how? i called in sick when i wasnt, (but they didnt know that) and they got huffy bout it and gave me the sack, then cancelled their contract with the agencey i work for, so, didnt hav much work wit the agencey after that, they did give me a 2 day job cleaning a shop, and that ends 2moro, lol, so still looking for a job, but my unkle knows sum1 who myte hav sum bar work for me, im hoping that i get it coz the guy knows my unkle so get it thru association, lol.

secondly, that new bf i woz telling you about, i dumped him after 2weeks, he got too clingy and he woz fucking me around, and im the type of person who doesnt really give out second chances, but wit this guy i gave him 3 strikes and he used all 3 up and kept me waiting around. he was also always claiming that i woz cheating on him, and the whole relationship was based round him, everything was about him and i jus got pissed off, he was also always going on about his ex, so after speaking wiv my best friend KF, i told her id be dumping him that nyte, i did, he woz completely pissed, so i went to his, got my stuff and dumped him, then didnt speak to him for about 2 days, that is until he started txting me tellin me i woz acting like a child, but i told him i wanted nuffin to do wit him, but he sent me abusive txts for a week, saying that we shud at least be friends and that i shud jus stop playin games, until i jus gave in and sed id be friends wiv him, after this txt was sent, he sed good, so now that we are friends, why dont u say sori and cum round my and ride my cock.
sori, but delusional world is he living in where he thinks that coz i sed we wud be friends, that im gona cum round and ride his cock after he has sent me abusive txts for a week, and even if i wanted to ride his cock, i wudnt coz he woz a twat!!! and i dumped him for a reason, lol.
he woz 28 and always acting like a child, lol, i fort older guys new wot they wanted, but after dating him, iv sundenly realised that i need to date a guy my own age.

on a better note, i went to see a psychic las saturday, was reeli good, she wasnt a fake, coz she new stuff that i keep dark and hidden and not even any of my friends no, and i tell them everything. she red my tarrot and generally told me type of person i was, wot wud be happening in the nex couple of months for me, wot id be good at doing for a job, and generally everything that u wud expect, and everything u wudnt, lol, she even told me things about my dead nan, that there was no way she cud hav known.

why is it that when u hav no money/job, all ur friends want u to go out wiv them? im lucky tho coz all my friends hav started paying for my nytes out, lol, 1 in particular (LR) is a very good friend and has paid for several of my nytes out in the last month, she is a reeli good friend, and tells me all the time that if she wants me to go out, i hav no choice, lol, 2 weeks ago she introduced me to EM, who is american, brilliant and like LR, is into girls, lol, so me and EM ended up in a strip club las friday, and me being poor, i didnt hav to pay for anything, EM bought me a few lapdances, lol, which didnt turn me on as it was from women, lol.
id feel guilty if i was taking peoples money and i had a job, but i dont feel guilty coz these are my friends, and they wudnt pay for me to go out unless they wanted to, lol.

well, this woz a long 1 2day, but i had a lot to get off my chest, lol, oh, 1 more thing, wen i do go out it EM, i always seem to get stupidly drunk that i dont remember anything the nex day, well that happened on frieday and i lost me blackberry, luckily i hav insurance on it, and got a new one 2 days later, so i hav a brand new blackberry, lol.

bye.

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xoxo

Monday, 13 April 2009

new month, new job, new boyfriend

hello, i no, bin a long time yet again, but i cudnt help it this time, iv bin a very bisey bee, lol, i got a new job at the beginning of the month and a new boyfriend, oh yes a reel life bf, lol, but its bin 2 weeks into the month and both of these hav been lost, lol.

1st - the new job woz only a cleaning job from the agency that i work for but hey, it woz paid work and beggers cant be choosers, only problem is that it lasted 3 days, why i hear u ask, well, i woz very ill on the 4th day due to food poisening and cudnt go in and foned in sick, which they didnt like, so not only did they fire me, but they also cancelled their contract wiv adecco, adecco foned me to tell me this, and sed in a way that sugested to me that the wudnt be doing it, that they wud fone me if anymore work came in, lol, it hasnt, lol.

2nd - i got a bf, my first 1, lol, introduced to me thru a lesbian friend, he is 27, tall, good luking and as it turns out, a complete control freak, i new him for a month, and started dating him after 2weeks of knowing him, then yesterday i dumped him, why, coz he is not over his last bf and im not gona be any1s rebound, that and the fact that he woz jus plain crazy and called me a dirty lil slut coz i like to go to hampshire bulevard, hes not aloud in for sum reason, but wudnt tell me why and the last straw woz wen i bought a ticket to the easter party for there yesterday, which he didnt like, and i cud see this relationship going in a direction i didnt like, but now hes trying to get bk together askin me wot i want, but its not me who has to make the choice, its him, hes jus not ready, and he kept compairing me to his ex who he broke up wiv 9months ago. sad reeli that tha woz my 1st relationship and it lasted all of 2 weeks, lol.

so, hb las nyte woz fucking awsum, free bar all nyte, lol, thats why i went, being poor wit no job or money i used my last £15 to go, lol, my friend SD from zurich came wiv me coz we aint sin each other in ages, well good nyte, lov that place,

well thats my rant for the week, or is it, who knows, sumthing myte pop up in the week and ill hav another, ill update on the job situation as it changes, but looks like im gona hav to sign on this week, woopty doo (i say wiv sarcasm)

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xoxo